My baby is 6! I can hardly believe it. I asked him, begged him to stay 5 and he said "why would I ever want to do that?" :) That kid is so funny. I can remember everything about the day he was born. I told him about it again today and he thought it was great that he was very blue when he came out. I did not find it at all funny! I remember my mom screaming about it and freaking out. The only reason I didn't jump off the table was my sister W was in the room too and she wasn't freaking out (she knew if she did I would have lost it!). The cord was wrapped tightly around baby N's neck and he couldn't breath. Once they got it taken care of he screamed like crazy and pinked right up.
I knew he would be my last. I loved being pregnant and having babies but D and I agreed two healthy boys was plenty. Little did I know we would not be raising our babies together. I know my "age" would allow me to have more but I am most certainly done. I love my boys like crazy and they are enough. BUT, it is going by way too fast. I spent too much time while they were growing up dealing with the "end" of relationships - wasting time on things that aren't worth it. No more of that! This last year has been such an awakening for me.
Today N wanted brownies for his class so I made them last night. Finished just in time to realize E still wasn't ok. Fever all day and just all around blah! We picked N up from school and came home and did some of his homework. Birthday boy picked dinner - homemade cheeseburgers, BBQ chips, root beer and more brownies. Poor E took a couple of bites and is now throwing up again. :( This is when I hate the guilt of being a single working mother. I want to be able to keep him home as long as he needs without wishing he could go to school because I NEED to go to work. I can do some from home but I really need to be in the office. It is a terrible thing to balance the needs of your children and the financial needs of having a job! I hate that he is sick and I hate needing him to get better just as much as I want him too. I am praying HARD that the rest of us do not get it. PLEASE! My parents are still sick so I hate to ask them to come sit with him and PDT is useless to even try. Not to mention E just wants me to sit next to him on the couch ALL of the time or he cries. I have watched a lot of Disney channel today.
I did get to go outside and play Moon Sand with N for a little while. That was his birthday gift today. He loved it. I think he had a great day and bearing any future disasters Sunday will be his little party at our house. Our first party in our new house. :)
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
My Poor Baby!
E is sick! :( We had H at our house until around 1:00 this morning and all was great. I fell asleep around 2ish and E woke up barfing @ 5:30. I think it was mostly because of a stuffy yucky nose but still! Now he is laying on the couch with a headache. Nana called to come over for the second time and we had to cancel :( Tomorrow is N's birthday and picture day at school...I hope everyone is all better.
N is one of those kids who doesn't change much when he is sick. He does not understand the concept of being still or quiet so he runs around like nothing is out of the ordinary. My poor E is not so lucky (or I should say I'm not so lucky) he is a total man, I mean baby when it comes to being sick. He whines a lot, requires constant contact and personal maid service. His Sprite doesn't taste right, he needs a new pillow, N is "moving". It is going to be a looonnnnggg day at the W's house! No nap in sight.
N is driving his lego car over WallE's back at the moment. I don't know if WallE realizes he isn't getting a massage but is actually being turned into a race track! E is calling....
N is one of those kids who doesn't change much when he is sick. He does not understand the concept of being still or quiet so he runs around like nothing is out of the ordinary. My poor E is not so lucky (or I should say I'm not so lucky) he is a total man, I mean baby when it comes to being sick. He whines a lot, requires constant contact and personal maid service. His Sprite doesn't taste right, he needs a new pillow, N is "moving". It is going to be a looonnnnggg day at the W's house! No nap in sight.
N is driving his lego car over WallE's back at the moment. I don't know if WallE realizes he isn't getting a massage but is actually being turned into a race track! E is calling....
Saturday, September 12, 2009
What just happened?
This last week was NUTS! It started last weekend. I cleaned house, painted walls, tables and the grass (accidentally) and did major yard work. Top that off with taking my ex-husband to the ER!?! Yeah, I still can't wrap my head around that one! Monday we snuggled down in our clean house and slept the day away before our crazy week started.
Tuesday our audit began at work. Lots of people, computers and drama followed. Smack in the middle was Back to School night (fun!) It's odd to use a word like drama when talking about work but that is the best word I can think of. I made for a long week! Thursday was of course the season opener of the NFL and my man was on TV. Not just the sidelines but actually playing. I do so love to watch him play. We had to take the audit team to dinner so I missed the live game. :( I recorded it to watch later and randomly checked the score on my Blackberry. Most of the audit team were male so they thought it hilarious that the one girl in the group was the one checking the score.
D and I decided we should cap the strangeness off with margarita madness on Friday. IT WAS AWESOME! WHY? Well margaritas were had by all but I got carded! It was hilarious! I am WELL over the legal drinking age and I look it. After I ran some errands and picked out N's b-day present. How is my baby a few short days from 6!
I guess in light of the crazy week I didn't realize that Friday was 9/11. I mentioned before how obsessed with that event I was/am. It still makes me cry to think of it. When I got home last night I watched the "As It Happened" special on MSNBC. It's strange to think that I didn't realize it was coming. It made me a little sad to think I almost forgot what a horrible, striking day in our history that was. I feel so sorry for those left to deal with the aftermath of that day. I wonder what it would be like to live in NYC or DC and see the reminder ever day.
Today we went grocery shopping and my friends daughter H is over at our house while they attend the Blink 182 concert here in town. She has the best giggle in the entire world....not to mention she is adorable. After all my hard work last weekend, our house is a mess.
I am officially the oldest living single 32 year old in history!
Tuesday our audit began at work. Lots of people, computers and drama followed. Smack in the middle was Back to School night (fun!) It's odd to use a word like drama when talking about work but that is the best word I can think of. I made for a long week! Thursday was of course the season opener of the NFL and my man was on TV. Not just the sidelines but actually playing. I do so love to watch him play. We had to take the audit team to dinner so I missed the live game. :( I recorded it to watch later and randomly checked the score on my Blackberry. Most of the audit team were male so they thought it hilarious that the one girl in the group was the one checking the score.
D and I decided we should cap the strangeness off with margarita madness on Friday. IT WAS AWESOME! WHY? Well margaritas were had by all but I got carded! It was hilarious! I am WELL over the legal drinking age and I look it. After I ran some errands and picked out N's b-day present. How is my baby a few short days from 6!
I guess in light of the crazy week I didn't realize that Friday was 9/11. I mentioned before how obsessed with that event I was/am. It still makes me cry to think of it. When I got home last night I watched the "As It Happened" special on MSNBC. It's strange to think that I didn't realize it was coming. It made me a little sad to think I almost forgot what a horrible, striking day in our history that was. I feel so sorry for those left to deal with the aftermath of that day. I wonder what it would be like to live in NYC or DC and see the reminder ever day.
Today we went grocery shopping and my friends daughter H is over at our house while they attend the Blink 182 concert here in town. She has the best giggle in the entire world....not to mention she is adorable. After all my hard work last weekend, our house is a mess.
I am officially the oldest living single 32 year old in history!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Gym Tonight?
Ever try to be a good friend even if you hate doing something? You do it because you think the other person likes it? Tuesday's J and I do our normal workout routine and on Thursday's we do a yoga class. I hate yoga! I don't sweat, I don't get the whole "meditation" thing, the room is dark AND I can't talk! Have you met me? :) So tonight we are running late and by the time we get to class it has started. We only where flip flops on yoga day so that meant we really couldn't do anything else so we decided to sign the kids out and just take them to dinner - productive, I know! I'm not sure how it came up but I mentioned to J that I didn't mind doing the class since she liked it but that I hated it! Guess what? SHE DOES TOO! She thought I liked it...it was so funny. So we quit! No more yoga. We will just go back to our normal workout on both days. I am so happy. I can sweat my ass off on the elliptical and weights and listen to my blaringly loud IPOD for an hour. At the end my aggression is usually gone and I have sweated out my issues.
The gym became my outlet while I was getting divorced. I decided I could sit home and bawl my face off or scream and cry but I didn't want the boys to see me like that and I knew I had to be strong for all of us so I hit the gym instead. At that point it was five days a week, it really kept me going. I would be so tired after that I didn't need to cry - I had a lot of anger to work out on. It served it purpose for me. Now I usually just have some every day issues to work out (not to mention my bat wings and back fat are back in full force after baseball season!) and J and I get to hang out and complain about our day for a little while. I go to the gym now because I like it and not because I have to just to deal with life. I know it could have been worse, I could have picked a destructive (like lots of shopping (retail therapy) and margaritas (only when I didn't have the boys) habit to avoid dealing with my feelings but it was still just a crutch and now it isn't! I simply go for me - thankfully, most things in my life are like that now. :)
The boys and S love the kid club so we are all motivated to go. 3 days a week would be better but it's hard with the homework and all. I get some extra exercise cleaning, doing yard work and chasing my dinosaur dog!
I am just so happy to not have to "center my being with the universe" that I could do the happy dance! AND, tomorrow is Friday. I get off early so I get to pick up my babies from school and we get three days to do whatever we want! I have some projects around the house to take care of and I want to get crackin on my book club book. Not to mention a Dexter Season 3 marathon. I must re-watch it before Season 4 starts. I LOVE THAT SHOW! :)
The gym became my outlet while I was getting divorced. I decided I could sit home and bawl my face off or scream and cry but I didn't want the boys to see me like that and I knew I had to be strong for all of us so I hit the gym instead. At that point it was five days a week, it really kept me going. I would be so tired after that I didn't need to cry - I had a lot of anger to work out on. It served it purpose for me. Now I usually just have some every day issues to work out (not to mention my bat wings and back fat are back in full force after baseball season!) and J and I get to hang out and complain about our day for a little while. I go to the gym now because I like it and not because I have to just to deal with life. I know it could have been worse, I could have picked a destructive (like lots of shopping (retail therapy) and margaritas (only when I didn't have the boys) habit to avoid dealing with my feelings but it was still just a crutch and now it isn't! I simply go for me - thankfully, most things in my life are like that now. :)
The boys and S love the kid club so we are all motivated to go. 3 days a week would be better but it's hard with the homework and all. I get some extra exercise cleaning, doing yard work and chasing my dinosaur dog!
I am just so happy to not have to "center my being with the universe" that I could do the happy dance! AND, tomorrow is Friday. I get off early so I get to pick up my babies from school and we get three days to do whatever we want! I have some projects around the house to take care of and I want to get crackin on my book club book. Not to mention a Dexter Season 3 marathon. I must re-watch it before Season 4 starts. I LOVE THAT SHOW! :)
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Defeated
That is the best word to describe my day. I was defeated by 8:20 this morning, no doubt about it. I am the so called "manager" of my department and apparently I'm not very good at it. No, I am not fired...yet. So how does one convince someone else to care about their job, care about the jobs of those around them? Explain to them how to "get it"? I have no idea...yep, more defeat! I care about my job, how well I do, how I present myself, how my company looks to others. I don't know any other way to be so I can't relate to those who don't. My department is the money maker for our company. No, we are not the most important but if we don't do our job it directly impacts the rest of the entire organization. If we don't meet our goals we don't need as many people in our department or the other support departments. I really felt the weight of the world on my shoulders today. (I know...so over dramatic but it is what it is.) I had to be the heavy, I had to paint the picture and I don't think I did a very good job. I am now at a total loss. What to do next? I feel like I am letting a lot of people down. D, D2 and G mostly...blah!
On top of the worst day ever? I got nothing but meetings accomplished today (5 in one day) and all next week will be spent in an audit...AGAIN! So here I am preaching "productivity instead of busy work" and I became the biggest offender. That really helped me feel better about the overall situation. Yeah, me!
I did get to have lunch with DC today...WOOHOO! I miss her and can't wait for baby L to be born. She is a great friend to talk with. I got so used to seeing her three times a week it seemed like forever since we got together.
Once the kiddo's get settled in for the night I am taking this pity party to the bathtub with my IPOD and a lovely glass of wine. If I am going to wallow in my self imposed drama I am going to make it as enjoyable as possible. Now, if I come up with a solution or two all the better. Oh yeah, that is totally going to happen. I am actually really glad tomorrow is gym day...I always feel better about anything after I burn some of it out at the gym. GRRR!
On top of the worst day ever? I got nothing but meetings accomplished today (5 in one day) and all next week will be spent in an audit...AGAIN! So here I am preaching "productivity instead of busy work" and I became the biggest offender. That really helped me feel better about the overall situation. Yeah, me!
I did get to have lunch with DC today...WOOHOO! I miss her and can't wait for baby L to be born. She is a great friend to talk with. I got so used to seeing her three times a week it seemed like forever since we got together.
Once the kiddo's get settled in for the night I am taking this pity party to the bathtub with my IPOD and a lovely glass of wine. If I am going to wallow in my self imposed drama I am going to make it as enjoyable as possible. Now, if I come up with a solution or two all the better. Oh yeah, that is totally going to happen. I am actually really glad tomorrow is gym day...I always feel better about anything after I burn some of it out at the gym. GRRR!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Compromise
I have decided that I can totally compromise. If Big Ben decides that living in Pittsburgh and playing football SOMEHOW sounds move fun than moving to sunny Cal to be my baby daddy then I can consider a compromise. I will instead take the drummer from Nickelback! OMG, he is lovely. :) I seem to really have a thing for drummers - I wonder how that came about? Ok, not so much the No Doubt drummer, while very entertaining and an awesome drummer, I find I can't live with the tutu.
Last night I extended my birthday fun an extra day with the Nickelback concert. My sister bought us tickets for our birthdays. We didn't realize that it started so early (on a MONDAY!) so it took a little last minute scrambling and me leaving work early (darn the bad luck) but in the end it was totally worth it. All four bands were really good live. Saving Abel opened first and then Hinder - oh that man's voice. It doesn't seem to fit his appearance at all but I could listen to it forever. Papa Roach followed - GREAT live and then Nickelback. The pyrotechnics were amazing. I don't think I have been to a concert that over the top before. The crazies were out in full force and I even took a video of one on my Blackberry. Too bad it is charging in the other room (why doesn't that battery last very long?). My sister was nice enough to watch the boys too and did so at our house so they could go to bed on time and all that back-to-school jazz. We didn't get home until after midnight and then it takes time to come off that concert high. Needless to say, my 5:30 alarm came way too soon! Of course that meant I bailed on the gym tonight...but Thursday is another chance and I am sure J also can't wait for another rousing yoga class.
Sunday's circus was so much fun. We had great seats and the boys and I loved it. E loved the cannon and the dog show. N couldn't pick a favorite but did really like the dogs too. I think the circus was a great way to spend my birthday. I did not however get any cotton candy. I know - shocking. IT WAS $12 - ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! After we grabbed some lunch and ran a couple of errands before heading over to have YUMMY b-day dinner with A and the fam. A cooked the menu I requested and made me cupcakes and all the kids made me presents. They were so adorable. T made me a three dimensional sack puppet (complete with breasts), A made me a card and H made me LOTS of things and included a treasure hunt to go with it. It was so special. Nana and Papa gave me a Starbucks card (and so did D, M and my sister - I must be so predictable.). You can never have too much pre-paid Starbucks!
Today is WallE's 2nd birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WALLE! I went on the West Coast Mastiff rescue site today and they have so many large breed dogs that need homes. Doesn't everyone want a WallE of their own? I would take them all if I could.
Nana (otherwise known as A's mom) said she didn't understand why people blog. A mentioned she only reads it to see if I say nice things about her. A - insert lots of nice things...ha! I don't write it for others to read, I like it when people read it and sometimes comment but I write it for me to read and remember all the really good and the not so great. I hope I can look back and laugh more than I cry. I want to read it one day and remember how funny I thought something the kids said or how lucky I was to get to spend the day with "insert name". That's how I roll! :)
Last night I extended my birthday fun an extra day with the Nickelback concert. My sister bought us tickets for our birthdays. We didn't realize that it started so early (on a MONDAY!) so it took a little last minute scrambling and me leaving work early (darn the bad luck) but in the end it was totally worth it. All four bands were really good live. Saving Abel opened first and then Hinder - oh that man's voice. It doesn't seem to fit his appearance at all but I could listen to it forever. Papa Roach followed - GREAT live and then Nickelback. The pyrotechnics were amazing. I don't think I have been to a concert that over the top before. The crazies were out in full force and I even took a video of one on my Blackberry. Too bad it is charging in the other room (why doesn't that battery last very long?). My sister was nice enough to watch the boys too and did so at our house so they could go to bed on time and all that back-to-school jazz. We didn't get home until after midnight and then it takes time to come off that concert high. Needless to say, my 5:30 alarm came way too soon! Of course that meant I bailed on the gym tonight...but Thursday is another chance and I am sure J also can't wait for another rousing yoga class.
Sunday's circus was so much fun. We had great seats and the boys and I loved it. E loved the cannon and the dog show. N couldn't pick a favorite but did really like the dogs too. I think the circus was a great way to spend my birthday. I did not however get any cotton candy. I know - shocking. IT WAS $12 - ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! After we grabbed some lunch and ran a couple of errands before heading over to have YUMMY b-day dinner with A and the fam. A cooked the menu I requested and made me cupcakes and all the kids made me presents. They were so adorable. T made me a three dimensional sack puppet (complete with breasts), A made me a card and H made me LOTS of things and included a treasure hunt to go with it. It was so special. Nana and Papa gave me a Starbucks card (and so did D, M and my sister - I must be so predictable.). You can never have too much pre-paid Starbucks!
Today is WallE's 2nd birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY WALLE! I went on the West Coast Mastiff rescue site today and they have so many large breed dogs that need homes. Doesn't everyone want a WallE of their own? I would take them all if I could.
Nana (otherwise known as A's mom) said she didn't understand why people blog. A mentioned she only reads it to see if I say nice things about her. A - insert lots of nice things...ha! I don't write it for others to read, I like it when people read it and sometimes comment but I write it for me to read and remember all the really good and the not so great. I hope I can look back and laugh more than I cry. I want to read it one day and remember how funny I thought something the kids said or how lucky I was to get to spend the day with "insert name". That's how I roll! :)
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